Public diary - Happy 2026, some days pass since my last entry

Before I copy and paste the entry here are some concepts or context to get a better grasp:

In 2025 I work at CB Informática, I did not like working there most of the time, I had/have somewhat of an inferiority complex, anxiety or whatever bad mental state or mindset that make things harder for me, I felt my coworkers dislike me and that I was not doing my job well enough.

I quit that company in November 2025, I have been unemployed for the last months.

Jovenes Construyendo el Futuro is a Mexican social program that gives me a job for 12 months, I did 9 months of the program in CB informática.

Sire, is another IT company from Xalapa, Veracruz.

I think that's all you need to know if my writing is confusing don't worry, pretty much the entry is me being better and with a new mindset for my life, always trying to look forward to better things.

The entry I wrote in my private diary (penzu)

Well, I'm grateful to remember this journal or diary, a few things has happened since my last entry.

Did I get a job? Not quite, today I have an interview at 16:00 hrs at Sire a local IT company from Xalapa, Veracruz. It's not the best place according to worker reviews, but I'll say it's a safe job, a really exhausting job maybe, but it may be worth giving it a try.

My other choice is to hopefully and for sure I'll get a chance to renew my social program Jovenes Construyendo el Futuro for another 4 months and get a job at a printing company I don't know the word in English, it's serigraph apparently, that one looks like a really cool and good opportunity despite the short duration, but I'll check the IT job first.

Why? It is safe, and I guess I could stay as much time as I want there, programming in Delphi and once more leaving office late, spending all my days inside and office, but getting money and hopefully saving for something better as well as applying to other companies constantly.

I should have applied like crazy while been at CB informática, but I learn from experiences I guess.

I have a supporting family that cares for me and a loving mother who helps me when I'm in these types of troubles.

I no longer think my coworkers hated me or similar, I think everything was in my mind, I've begun to read a few book for my career and how to have a better mindset, positive mindset if you can call it that, it seems helpful, and I'm looking forward to developing this mindset even more for the sake of my mental health in general and my overall improvement.

Also, I started running due to recommendation from one of the books, soft skills a developer life manual I think it was the title, it's been one of the greatest exercises I've ever done, runners high is really helpful to improve my mood on well-being and hope I continue with this exercise no matter what, it's better than my rope skipping I sometimes practice.

And finally, I have a personal website and blog now, I'm thinking on posting this entry to a public-diary sort of category it may be nice and just make my life a bit more public, but it may help other people with the same struggles I have, pretty much a "you are not the only one" or "you are not alone with these problems" type of thing.

Although it may be pretty pretentious to post this type of things, everyone has a life and I should now expect people to care about me or just get that interest in every aspect of what I do, but I'll hopefully expect the reaction to be positive and just encourage them to ask me something or just chat in general, I hope my blog entries are useful. I'll probably post some tutorials or something like that, which are more likely to be of help.

This is all I wanted to talk for now, and if I do make this public, and you finished reading this, congrats and thanks for your patience, this is my way of writing in my private diary which I don't write in very often, I hope my story entertained you or just made you feel a bit more positive.